Trying to be Strong~

On the 25th of April~ i am really happy and strong...in a really happy mood where i get to smile when i do everything~

I smile when i wake up..
I smile when i shower..
I smile when i eat..
I smile when i study..
I smile when i listen to music..
I smile when i play with my friends..
The whole day smiling to me and everybody else..~^_^

On the 26th April, just after 12 midnight...my mood change..my smile is gone~ everything is gone~

She said, "You have the problem in accepting the fact."
She said, "You have the problem in facing the problem."
She said, "You have the problem in listening to others."

All those...do you know the reason why? It is easier said than done..I am not you or anyone else or anyone different.. I am just me...my character is like that, and that makes me special~

But those characters, it brings me a lot of pain and harm to my heart.. i am trying my best to ignore the things that i don't want to see at all. But yet, i still went to see it... I really hate this feeling so much!

I want to be strong...my heart wants to be strong~ To face it...but what you said, it makes me think about the things that i am about to forget...it stings my heart~ do you know that or not?

Your my beloved friend...i know you bring me no harm...but your words stings me..i don't know what is your purpose of doing it...