Fooled Again

i don't know what else to say... it's just me who has been a real foolish...

he left me, he left me too and he left it also~~

i got nothing else to say or comment about my life and yes, i understand now that i can't change my fate.

i think it's time for me to be alone. but i really hope that there will be someone for me to talk with as to get my time pass peacefully.

i am stupid to get myself hurt over and over again...i thought things would be different...yet the result is the same.

my fate is like that then i have to accept it that way...alone~

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i have nothing else...i have nothing left...i am always left alone

i just want someone to love me and care for me...

whenever i try to love someone and just starting...it goes the other way round.

it's not that i am desperate for guys, but i want someone there for me.. who can always be there for me other than the person who will love me.

my family...i can't give my trust to my family... they are not the one i am to put my hope on...i can't depend on them. i don't want to be hurt by them again.

i really don't like people to ignore me...the tension i will get is really unbearable. i can't sleep, can't concentrate and can't focus on anything i do. it's really suffocating me. i just want an answer.. an answer can make me more relieve rather than no answer at all.

please God!! just an answer...i want nothing else..Just one answer from him can really make me happy enough already...

Should I or Should I Not??

I am really scare when thinking of it..but i really want someone to be there just for me.. Just only me..

But when I think the consequences that i may need to face with...i really want to cry again...it's really painful when thinking about it more.

There is no way I can escape from everything and it~~ I want to break free!! Just break free to get a fresh air and a new start and a new memory for myself...

Although I have gone through so much..nobody knows what i have been through..>~< it's really suffocating me and stopping me from doing the things that i love.

I want to forget the past...Yet the past keeps me from moving forward...what should i do? What decision should i make?? Please anyone!! Guide me!!

I Don't Dare~

I don't want to get hurt again and again... it's really enough for me to go through it over and over again. It's not fun to play, don't you know??

Don't you know how much it hurts when you..."ourselves" found out the truth..it's really going to hurt ones' heart more.

My heart..i really want to try something new..a new love maybe. But that love~~ it's really scary. Really scared to go through it again.

If you meet someone nice, it's not that easy to just let go, right? But in my situation, i have to let go. Letting go of something is always in my life. I even have to let go of my beloved pets.

One of the guy is back where he is supposed to be whereas the other one sometimes really caring but sometimes really over caring about my situation.

I don't know i should be happy about it or not. What type of feelings should i have now? It's really hard to decide. I need a really good counsellor that can give me a logic and reasonable thoughts.

~ Another Nightmare ~

A mum~~
A sister~~
Both are the people that I hate most~~

A mum that always thinks that she is right all the time~~
A sister that always thinks that whatever she does is right~~

Both though denying that they are the same~~
But both of them are the same~~
Having the same characteristics~~

I really don't know what is the problem here... everybody has their own opinion on things and maybe you may not like it, just try to advise or speak out your thoughts without hurting other people.

If you don't understand the situation, then just shut up. It's none of your problem and business. I seriously don't understand.

If you say this is family "love".... go and dig up a hole and jump in... Open your eyes. Look into the mirror~~ do I have to record your worst character and show it to everyone and ask them to critic? Aren't that stupid of you??

Just look in the mirror if you understand. It has been enough for me. I don't want to go through something that I don't wish to do so any more. Enough is enough.