Lonely~

I really dont know why i still want to keep this feeling in myself since this is the result that i will get. I should be strong but my heart is still in pain... I just dont want to be lonely.

Kwang Wei...he is the guy that had spent his time of 3years with me. He knows me well enough to be my husband, but instead i hurt him more than he experienced before in his life. It is all because of my family and me...ME. The one that cause him so much pain.

When i was separated from him..i tried to forget him and the pain in me by meeting with this guy...

Andrew Robert. When i first met him, i thought he was a nice guy. He was at first. He said he loved me and treated me very nice. He even bring me out and enjoy. Even if we could not be together, i dont mind to be just friends...but soon things started to change after just a short memorable memories. And i never got an answer from him.

I really felt tired and hurt in love relationship which i thought i can hold it. It never lasted the way i wanted...

I just want a simple love from a single guy..
I just want a simple friendship from a simple friend..
I just want a simple life from a simple family..

I really feel painful. Just nobody is out there for me to reach when i need them especially now...