:'(

what should i say?

well, tears starting again...

On the few days past, it was Pikom Pc Fair...my best friend and I went to the event. We had a lot of fun and both of bought a few gadgets. We even had a new friend and he was really funny. We laugh all the way home.

A few days later, he and his friend asked us out for a movie. So, we did agree to go out with them. I am a talkative and active person but on that night i become the other way round. The one talking and active was not me.. it was dearly quiet friend. ^^

They talk and all.. But the whole night i was thinking of what my friend said,

"Don't think and expect to much of what will happen tonight. I don't want you to get hurt after the previous incident about the clubbing guy."

And my friend made a joke, "Tonight if got nice looking guy, it will be mine o!"

Well, i don't know what i am suppose to do. I kinda like him but i have this feeling that he like my friend. That's what i felt that night. And i try to control myself and not to do anything. But i do feel sad.

On the next day, my mind was totally down. I really wanted to know the answer. Do she likes him too? Do he like her too?? I really wanted to know the answer so badly that i isolated myself the whole day.

That night, i finally asked her, and although her answer was uncertain, but i feel like she do kinda like him too. Hence, i had to make a decision. That is to forget the chances i have and let it go.

She is my best friend.. the person that i care about a lot. I am willing to do anything for her although it hurts me. But i think it is worth it.^^

Him

I feel like seeing him one more time...

I feel like writing something memorable down...

A story to be told and read and felt...

But even so...there is nothing i can do about it.

Calvin~ 2/4 to 3/4~ 2011

I met this guy during my enjoyment time at the club, @Live, Sunway Pyramid.

When thinking about how we start our conversation, it is really funny because he is trying to find a "un-supportive" reason.

We spend our time together for that few hours and had a great fun with him and his friends.

The first movement he did that really shocked me and thrilled me when he suddenly kissed on my cheek. I thought i was drunk and did not what was exactly happening. There is one moment where he said to me, " There is a smudge on your lips." And when i was trying to wipe it, he suddenly kiss my lips. I was really thrilled!!

He danced with me and shouted together and all that~ He is really caring towards a girl..he will protect me..>~<'' against others "invasion".

When we, my friends and I is about to go home, he offered me a ride. So, since i was really excited in meeting this new guy, I accepted his offer really easily.

Once reached home, he spend his time talking to me and we both asked a lot of questions. Talk and talk till time go pass by. A lot of things, funny things happened in between the times we were together.

But everything change, when he ask me a straight forward question, if we did happened "something".. can i accept it or not.. and he said he do not wish me to get hurt. Well, I understand what he means. Yet, we both do feel like everything indeed moves to fast and a bit out of hand.

Hence, so far..i really still want him as my friend and he felt the same way too. But there is a lot of unanswered question in both our minds that we do not know how to answer it.

Although so...i don't know if i can trust him or not. So it is really frustrating. Of all, the most unforgettable thing is that he has the same birthday as me!! Darn it!!

All i can say now is that i really do miss him cause i can finally felt the caring feeling from a guy towards me and i don't wish to forget most. But, it is something that i may have to let go before i get hurt once more.

Mew Mew!!~~

Ahhhh!!!!~~~

Tonight! 21/3/2011!! I am so high!! Metabolism rate increasing!!~~ Awesome!!!~~

Let me show u all my cuties~~ my awesome companions!~~

Unfortunately...there is one more picture missing~~ Xd

Sorry that I stole their pictures~~ Xd but please be happy since your in my life!~~ ^^

Last Night~

Maybe because i am too bored that i went and see the things that i actually don't wish to know~

In the end, i hurt myself again... I just don't get it about guys~ haiz..so i had a "little" drink with my baby "Domo" and one of my house mate,who is now having relationship problem... which there is only 2 of us in the house for a week~

We drank and talk...both did cried...but my heart still feel the pain...hopefully there is something out there that can cure it...hahaha~ before the end of the world~ ^^

Don't You?

For the past few weeks, i have been chatting and talking with this guy...older me 1 years old.

I know him during my practical before the Chinese New Year holidays... Xd

I think he is really cute...and i don't know why, when i hear him laugh, i will laugh too..

There is this part of laughter in him, that is really, really cute and adorable!! <3

I AM NOT A STALKER BUT HE IS REALLY A CUTE GUY!! :P

My Babies~

Let me show my most beloved babies~ which i had been taking care of it for 1 year..

Due to some finance and time problem in taking care of it, i had to pass it to others to take care of it... and they are still fed and care with plenty and plenty of LOVES!~